when you’re left with only a bullet, i’ll bring the trigger and the promise to pull it.
the 11pm service on christmas eve was a first. i put aside my reservations against organized religion and went to hear my father and grandmother sing in the choir. not to mention see old faces. i also realized i’m pretty scared of losing something or someone i love. i don’t think it’s really happened yet and if and when it does, i don’t know how well i’ll hold up. i like to think i’m a strong person. but who knows, my head was a real mess during the service. now it just hurts. i haven’t felt that great all day. or yesterday for that matter. i think i’m just physically and mentally rundown. i started work on a new layout/design for stafford’s web site. i like it so far.
starting to run out of clean clothes. you know what that means.
fuck. now i have to wrap everyone’s presents.
merry christmas.
my eyes are starting to burn. that’s never a good sign. christmas has come and gone. only a half hour ago, but still. fittingly, i was the last one to wake up this morning. not that it mattered, we still had to wait for my grandmother to come over. everyone liked what i got them and it’s safe to say that alex, katie, and betsy racked up this year [not that i didn’t, i got some cool shit too]. they all seemed to get lots of stuff they wanted and even stuff they didnt’ ask for that they really liked. probably the biggest present, for me, was a new digital [fujifilm finepix s3000]. it’s nice. i don’t know if i’m gonna bring it with me this weekend though. i might. who knows. i really want to get a bigger memory card for it. maybe i’ll just pick one up tomorrow, so i can use it this weekend. regardless, what i really want are the two lense adapters [wide angle and teleconverter]. too bad those each are about 150 a pop. that’s happening no time soon. i’ve got bills to pay up the ass and more spending to do. go figure. betsy gave me top spin. now i’m going to have two different video games to play compulsively, instead of just one. other notable presents include, a jar of roasted peppers [from my mom], shirt & pants from j. crew [from aunt viv], a cell phone car charger, money, a jacket, and gift cards. christmas dinner was nice. both grandmothers and our nextdoor neighbors came over. the neighbors said they’re gonna have a big party on austrailia [from hence they came] day, which is jan. 28th or 26th [i can’t remember]. sucks that i’m not gonna be here. they’re good times. the neighbors that is. it’ll be the first time they’re gonna be throwing a party. i’ve got a list of shit to-do tomorrow that never ends. i have no clean clothes. so, laundry is a must. the suburban has to get taken to get worked on. i have to go to the bank, etc. probably the biggest thing is getting the artwork done for stafford. i pretty much have the actual art done, i just have to figure out all the templates and shit. that’s the hardest part. i’ve never done this before so there is somewhat of a learning curve. i feel bad because tom wants the album to be ready by their show the day after new year’s. which might be impossible. i don’t even know if i’ll be able to get all the templates set up tomorrow and, depending on how much longer it takes next week, we’d still have to wait for the actual cds to get pressed. i’m gonna try though. at the same time i want this stuff out because the band has put so much work into it, i only have so much time. it’s the holidays, i’m busy, and i’m doing this shit completley free. plus, i want to rush as little as possible because not only does this work reflect the band, it also reflects my skills. fuck. i’m too tired to think anymore. i’m gonna go clear all the presents off my bed and pass the fuck out.
