May 2003
it's only me and my big dreams.
i have so much to do today. i shouldn’t even be doing this. whatever. i definitley have to find some new shit to take pictures of. my room is an absolute mess and ang will be here in 12 hours! that may seem like a lot of time, and in reality, it is. however, i’m real good at procrastinating. yup. plus, i have to pick up pops from the airport. that means i have to have...
May 30th
mt. misery road.
not suprisingly, all the wrong people are supporting their cause daily to be excluded from my life. good work you guys, for all i care, i hope you succeed. it takes a lot of strength to keep all the hate for certain things/people inside of me. a lot of people don’t realize this. i’ve always been happier somewhere else, doing something else, spending my time with other people. i...
May 27th
15 times i was better than you.
i have a whole fucking bookshelf of these. see, i used to be good at something. what went wrong, i’ll never know. i hate waiting for something to happen.
May 22nd
staring at the setting sun.
i watched them practice last night and heard some of the new shit they recorded. really can’t wait until their next show. i bought some black and white film today. i’m going to teach myself how to use the canon this summer. betsy made dinner tonight. it was nice. the first family-related activity that didn’t piss me off. today, i took the blazer to get it’s oil...
May 19th
so in the long thigh of the late sunlight, i come...
maybe it started when my favorite pin broke off my favorite bag. it got stuck in the door of the blazer and got torn off the strap. there it lay, a broken piebald pin shivering on the cold, hard asphalt. the dickies bag cowered in my lap, like it was his fault or something. what the fuck am i talking about? i still have the pin, i just can’t wear it. i got over it. that’s what...
May 16th