November 2003
this is the first [thing i remember], this is the...
i suspect almost every day that i’m living for nothing, i get depressed and i feel self-destructive and a lot of the time i don’t like myself. what’s more, the proximity of other humans often fills me with overwhelming anxiety, but i also feel that this precarious sentience is all we’ve got and, simplistic as it may seem, it’s a person’s duty to the potentials...
so far, definitley top ten.
like violence you have me forever and after.
there was so much energy…
last night was one of the best nights of my life.
on a positive note, rome wasn't built in a day.
fundamentalism (of any kind) troubles me. the world is too big and too intricate to conform to our ideas of what it should be like. in my experience i’ve found that most fundamentalists aren’t so much attached to their professed ideologies as they are to the way in which these ideologies try to make sense of a confusing world. but the world is confusing, and just...
when i opened up, everything fell out.
coordinate brain and mouth. then ask me what it’s like to have myself so figured out. i wish i knew.
i don’t really know what i was for halloween. some people called me a porn star. some people said i was being myself. some people said i was a tourist. and others said i was a jogger/fitness dude straight out of the 70s/80s. who knows. and i doubt i have any pictures of what i...